Lilith's Call

There are whispers within us that never die away, even beneath the thickest layers of ambition and expectation. Primal calls, like echoes from a forgotten wilderness, that persist in reminding us that the essence of our being is far greater than the life we lead. For me, Gülsah, this whisper was quiet for a long time, almost inaudible, before becoming a resounding call: Lilith's call.

The Beginning of Silence: A Life Traced

I invite you to step back in time, long before the stars and inner maps that guide my life today. My path began in Turkey, in the vibrant city of Bursa, where my studies paved a path many would have deemed enviable. Finance. A world of precise numbers, calculated strategies, and tangible successes. I remember those early years within a large international corporation, where every day, every hour, every minute was dedicated to work. My evenings stretched late, weekends melted into the files open on my desk. It was a frantic race, a marathon where the only horizon was the next deadline, the next promotion.

This absolute focus, this iron discipline, was bearing fruit. Barely two years had passed when a new door opened, even bigger, more prestigious. A promotion, yes, but one that took me to the beating heart of Istanbul, to join the finance department of an international energy giant. It was a dream come true, recognition of my efforts, proof that perseverance was the key to everything. My existence then revolved around this incessant wheel: working, succeeding, climbing the ladder. My identity melted into my professional role, a shining armor that nevertheless masked a silent but persistent part of me.

And yet, beyond the Excel spreadsheets and complex reports, a primal force continued to call to me. An energy that welled up from the depths of my being, seeking to pierce the veil of my consciousness. It tried, tirelessly, to remind me that immense swathes of my soul remained fallow, ignored, neglected. It was like a forgotten melody, played in a distant room of my own house, whose notes I sometimes heard but could not identify. This part of me is what Jung called the shadow: everything we repress, everything we do not want to see, but which holds incredible power if we dare to look at it. My shadow was beckoning to me, telling me that my life, however brilliant it may appear on the surface, was not fully nourishing me.

Synchronicity: The Shock of the Unexpected

Then, life, in its unfathomable wisdom, orchestrated an encounter. One of those moments that isn't random, but rather a coincidence so significant that it becomes a true synchronicity, a profound alignment between my inner world and the outer world. One ordinary afternoon, I found myself face to face with a clairvoyant. A man with keen eyes, who pierced my businesswoman's armor in a few moments.

His words resonated with incredible power. "In less than two weeks," he said, his gaze serious but tinged with a mysterious glow, "you will meet the love of your life. And your entire world will be transformed." A shiver ran down my spine. It was both a brilliant promise of happiness and a warning tinged with a kind of inevitability. How would my meticulously constructed life be "transformed"? Hope mingled with a vague disquiet, a feeling of standing on the edge of a precipice, with the promise of a new landscape below.

My Cartesian mind tried to brush these words aside. A "prediction"? In my world of numbers and facts, it had no place. And yet, the seed was sown. A tiny part of me, the one that resonated with that distant whisper of my shadow, began to whisper: "What if? What if it were possible?" This clairvoyant's speech had not fallen into the void; it had found a deep echo, a familiar but forgotten vibration, as if an inner Lilith, my principle of wild and nonconformist independence, was beginning to stir gently. It was only asking to be awakened.

Inner Awakening: The Stirring of the Depths

Thirteen days later. Thirteen days, a number often associated with mystery and transformation. I found myself face to face with him. I didn't immediately know that this was my future husband, no. But I remember feeling something was different. A new energy, a piqued curiosity, an unexpected connection. Was this the prophecy coming true? A part of me was still hesitating, analyzing, trying to rationalize this encounter. But beneath the surface of my thoughts, deeper influences were beginning to manifest, undercurrents stirring the still waters of my existence. You can imagine the sensation of an internal clock suddenly aligning with a universal rhythm.

Introspection imposed itself with a force I had never known. What was stirring within me? It was a primal energy, a power dormant for ages, beginning to uncoil its coils and stretch. Imagine a thousand-year-old dragon, coiled deep within the earth, who, after a deep sleep, feels the first vibrations of dawn and begins to awaken. His breathing is slow and deep, but each movement makes the very ground of my being tremble.

My shadow, the part of me I had so carefully set aside to become the perfect woman in finance, was demanding its due. It was my repressed desires, my stifled creativity, my desperate need for authenticity. And this personal shadow was clashing with a larger, more collective shadow, rooted in the Turkish culture I grew up in. Where tradition, family, and the group sometimes prevail over the individual, Lilith in me was stirring, the rebel, the one who says no to submission, who demands her right to her own existence. It was a silent but intense tug-of-war: the woman I was meant to be versus the woman I was destined to become. My nights were restless, my days filled with questions, as if the stars themselves had moved to shake me up. Uranus in particular, the planet of revolution and awakening, seemed to be making powerful transits on the foundations of my natal chart. You are beginning to see the complexity of this phase.

I began to understand that this force, this raw power I felt rising, was not to be feared. It was not destructive, but transformative. My path, until then, had been a rigorously traced straight line. Now it was becoming a fascinating labyrinth, with unexpected twists and turns, where each corner revealed a new facet of myself. It was time to no longer flee my shadow, but to integrate it, to understand it, to transform it from a burden into a source of power.

Emergence: Four Years Later

Four years have passed since that encounter that started it all. The landscape of my life has been radically reshaped. Today, I am Gülsah, the proud owner of a thriving coaching business. My heart is filled with a fulfilling marriage, built on a foundation of love and mutual understanding. The woman in finance, the one who worked entire weekends, has given way to a woman who lives and breathes her passion: supporting other women.

My business isn't just a financial success; it's a life mission. I'm dedicated to helping women unlock their power, embrace their uniqueness , so they can build the lives they desire, lives that resonate with their deepest truth. The success I enjoy today isn't the result of a new, rat-race, but the result of a profound integration. I've learned to dance with my shadow, to transform my fears into allies, my doubts into curiosities.

My path of individuation, this Jungian process of becoming the most complete and authentic person one can be, became my compass. I learned that Lilith's raw energy, this indomitable force, was not to be tamed, but to be directed, to be channeled to create a life that reflects me, a life where every decision is imbued with my own sovereignty.

I sought this light in my shadows, and that is where my true power came from. The woman I am today is the integration of all these facets: ambition, structure, sensitivity, fantasy, and this primal force that called me back to order.

The Call Is Still There... For You Too

My story is unique, and yet its echo resonates within each of us. That primal force, that call from Lilith, that voice from the shadows that tells us we are worth much more than we appear, that invitation to radical authenticity—it's within you too. It waits, sometimes patiently, sometimes insistently, for you to pay attention.

If this story has stirred something within you, if you feel that your own deep desires, your fantasies, your inner power are waiting to be revealed, then perhaps your own call of Lilith is being heard.

The time has come to listen to yourself, to give yourself permission to fully blossom. What is the whisper of your soul? What is the path your inner strength invites you to take? You can begin now.